Young Twistout da GAWD update:
So...in a (very minor) concession to my depression, I decided to stop doing my hair. For the past month I haven’t detangled or twisted my hair, I wash it when I shower (like the whites) and oil it but that’s it 🙅🏽♀️.
Trying to maintain my natural hair is one of the most frustratingly impossible tasks while managing my depression. In the grand scheme of things though, hair doesn’t really matter and sometimes you gotta forfeit a battle for the sake of the war.
In the beginning I was giving cute, wash and go, untwisted curl pattern (like in this photo from April 17), but I now have full fledged free-form locks and let’s just say...y’all won’t be seeing me irl without a headwrap on until further notice.
My hair holds wayyy more of my self esteem than I care to admit and seeing it look so unattractive (this is MY opinion about MY hair and you do not matter enough to me to change my mind so 🤫🤫🤫) has been difficult.
While I hate the way my hair looks right now, I’m so impressed by its ability to do this. I said, “go on and lock up if you want to, idgaf,” and my hair said, “bet. 🔒🔒🔒”
Plus, I’m finna cut all my hair off soon to commemorate starting this next chapter of my career anyway so 🤷🏽♀️. Be on the lookout for a video about that on my YouTube channel soon (link at the bottom of my website please subscribe ✌).